salt lake city to stay with my grandparents.
on sunday we had a family dinner
at my cousins house.
i sat at the table after dinner
listening to the conversations around me,
adults questioning our college exams and classes,
my cousins questioned my uncles
about the MCAT's and other doctor talk,
and we spoke of life decisions that
me and my cousins were having to make.
as these discussions were happening
all around me i looked outside,
i saw all my little cousins
jumping on the trampoline and
hanging from the jungle gym in the backyard.
it felt like just a second ago
that me, eden, and andrew were
out on that same jungle gym and trampoline,
looking inside through
the massive glass doors,
counting the years until we
could sit at the grown up table.
now, looking from the inside out,
i wish i could go back to those days
where life was simple,
and our biggest problems consisted of play dates
and who stole the toy from who.
life as a grown up is fun,
but frightening at the same time.
i question every day if being
a photographer is the right choice.
i know i love it and i want to do
it for the rest of my life,
but that knowledge also
comes with the questions of
if i am good enough to pursue this,
and if i will be able to get a job...
the questions linger in my mind as the days pass,
and i will just have to wait until the future is now.
"no matter what you love to do,
if you follow your bliss,
you can make a living doing it"
-mike rosenthal
(one of my favorite photographers)
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